Friday, November 5, 2010

Dekat disayang, jauh dikenang..

Listening to: Maher Zain - Open Your Eyes

I could sense from the start that it was different than usual. But little did I expect it would eventually turn out to be THIS special and dear to me. Perhaps it's true that once you've met something/someone nice, you just got to spend more time with the person, and soon all the more good qualities will you see and learn about them. That's how I'm exactly feeling about my time with Apex - it just gets better! or so it seems after reaching my 2nd year =)

Right from the beginning when I met my 2010 batch of kids there were already soo much to smile about. Times were peppered with many delightful instances; like how my little girls already wanted to hold my hands during the first session! Manja2 sayang hehe.. The boys also have their cute antics; of acting like Upin & Ipin, of one squeaking in horror when a bee flew by, and their endless teasing and wanting to sidetrack to chitchats =D Can't forget how adorable they all looked when they earned colorful star stickers for scoring good marks, or excitedly scribbling their answers on the big whiteboard, and asking me with their twinkly eyes for clorets every week.. “Kak ade gula-gula mints tu?” Oh no I hope I didn’t get them addicted to those haha!




Looking back I’m really grateful that Allah gave me this chance to teach them science and find enjoyment in it, alongside my cool co-mentors Istyana and Anuar. What’s more impactful personally is seeing before one’s eyes how kids try to learn and make sense of things.. the way they would come up to us and salaam our hands.. and getting to hear them making du'a and reciting the 99 names of Allah every morning.. subhanAllah~

So when our final gathering came with last Saturday’s Apex Irsyad Appreciates, it was a bittersweet parting to say our farewell to each other. We didn't meet for three weeks since they were having their PSLE exam, so I was very very touched when I heard "Kak Diyana!" and suddenly Sumaiyah sprang up on me with a bigggg hug! =') And it was a seriously pleasant surprise when not only did my girls each wrote me a letter, but even my three boys too! MasyaAllah my sweet adik-adik, I'm more than thankful to have met all of you =)) May you're always safe within His care and that our paths cross someday again in the future, ameen..




Equally meaningful to the whole Apex experience is to have friends like these awesome sisters and brothers! Being with them simply rub off positive vibes on me. Very motivating on keeping the right Intentions and the Niyyah of Imam al Haddad rahimahullah (shown in the collage below). But just as how their niceness and devotion are apparent, they sure have a FUNNY witty side to match! Always were there smiley moments with truckloads of laughter, while ensuring proper gender interactions.. Ahh such rare gems they are =))

I still remember one occasion when a brother shared a poem during our morning briefing: "What you spend years to build, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway. The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway." Some of us might have heard it already, but what struck me strongly was seeing him in tears, just by reciting and really feeling those lines~ Amazing!




Through Apex I’ve gained much happiness interacting with kids, and now it does spur me to think more about child development and other possibilities too. Questions hit me when I happen to see children playing by themselves at the playground.. Are they getting the support they need? How’s their upbringing like? I’ve noticed emails popping up for volunteers to help students from lower-income families.. and surely we’re very much in need of more people coming forward to assist.

How wonderful if we could ever build a strong network of youth volunteers spread across all parts of Singapore, who are driven enough to consistently nurture our younger ones from various backgrounds. Of together staying connected, to effect change through education and lasting positive relationships. Perhaps it IS possible =) Allahumma Ameen!




"Seek knowledge, because seeking it for the sake of Allah is worship. And knowing it makes you more God-fearing, and searching for it is jihad, teaching it to those who do not know is charity, reviewing and learning it more is like tasbeeh". - Sheikh Ibn Taymiyyah rahimahullah



Sunday, July 18, 2010

A Morning at Bukit Timah


Salaam & hallooo again, everyone! Wah it's been 2 years since I last wrote something here hmm. :) Now having my semester break (more like nearing it's end) and felt it's time I should put up a new post at least once, as what I had promised to a friend studying in Syria.. Just two weeks more to go and soon I'll be starting my 3rd year insyaAllah! Busy, busy phase ahead.

But before that happens, I'm glad Hajjar suggested climbing up Bukit Timah last Saturday morning. Saw it as a chance to mentally train myself for the tougher core modules I'll be facing too haha. Since I had always wished to go Mount Stong and Ophir with Saff Perdaus but never could, guess it'd be good to see if I can withstand the much smaller version first. Pictures credit: Bro Halim.


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On the day itself I was woken up by flashes of lightning and thunder at 4am! Pretty worried if we had to cancel our plan, but thankfully by the time I met my APEX Irsyad friends at the Visitor Centre it was raining less heavily. Sat down and had our very filling potluck breakfast, and ahh Khairiana's baby carrots wtih Asparagus & Cream cheese dips were really yumyumm! It was still drizzling so we ventured out to a nearby playground at Hindhede Park, and there were trampoline and ropes to swing around! It was fun enough watching the girls jumping on the not-so-bouncy canvas and playing catch :D We finally began trekking when the skies cleared around 10+..


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Although I initially thought that we're going to take the usual concrete pavement to the summit, things got quite exciting when we decided to trudge the more difficult route, climbing looong continuous series of high steps and muddy twigs-laden grounds. Had to go up and down many many times that I kept getting out of breath and seriously weak in the knees! Couldn't talk much throughout the climb with my barely enough energy haiz..

But despite the extra toughness of this route, I'm pleased with how closer we got to experience nature in the depths of all those greenery. Stepping onto uneven soil, steadying ourselves against the trees when descending, looking out over the edges and slopes which were just on our right side (with the frequent shout-outs "keep left!" :D) .. and even coming across wonderful features like the mini-waterfall below.


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Just when I started to get all happy as we emerged out into the main pavement, I spotted this towering flight of steps up ahead which stretched far beyond what my eyes could reach! It was super duper high it even looked monstrous >_< Called the Summit Path, this was really the final lap to the top. But little did I know what's bound to come.. What felt like climbing endlessly soon turned into the most excruciating punch I could no longer deal with.

In an instant the dizziness hit me and it got so hard to breath. Really felt like passing out there and then, asking people to just go ahead without me. But in those blurry moments I saw Rayhan reaching out her arm for me to grasp, some others reassured to endure a lil bit longer (Asyraf even exclaimed an encouraging "Allahu Akbar! Go Diyana!!" hahah) and Safa kindly offered to carry my bagpack. MasyaAllah.. so nice of them! With all the help given and the tiny bit of strength left, the summit was eventually in sight and conquered! Alhamdulillah~ yaaahooo!! :D


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In a nutshell, I felt the trip was a very humbling one for me: of seeing the weakness within, and the greatness of heart that Allah has endowed in others around me.. Grateful to be in the company of such cheerful sisters and brothers, who are always full of amazing humor but still encouraging the remembrance of Him. Alhamdulillah! =) And now that I've tasted the rigors of Bukit Timah, maybe I won't be going for the other two after all =P